Hi :] I was on tumblr, and I'm following this girl (who I think is really cool and now I go on her tumblr and her blog everyday but I find her really exciting, am I weird?) who is doing this 365 days of blogging. And, I found hers really interesting because she's a freshman in college (I believe?) and she's just getting back to her 2nd semester and, I don't know. It's just really intriguing. ANYWAYS, I'm getting off topic, I don't know where I was going with this.
Oh yes! I'm stealing her idea! I'm going to do 365 days of blogging, so that this time next year, as a freshman in college, I can look back and see where I have come from, the struggles I've faced, the memories I've made. I'm not sharing this with very many people that I really talk to IRL though, due to the fact I want to be as open and honest about everything that's happening as possible.
I don't really know what to tell you about myself, and I'm sure there are going to be days where I don't really have much to talk about, so I'll just talk about myself then. (I think I might have stolen that idea from the girl, but shh ;P)
So, today was my first day back to school after winter break. I'm a senior in high school, and I graduate in 135 days. I'm pretty excited to graduate, so I can go out and see the world and get all of the new opportunities and la-dee-dah? You know what I mean. But, at the same time, I'm terrified. I know I'm great with meeting people, and my best friend already goes to the college that I'm going to, but it's still scary because I'll be away from my parents who I haven't been away from for more than a week, ever... But, it will be awesome so that I can grow and develop into the person that I want to be.
Anyways, school today was kind of lovely. I felt happier than I did most of last semester. I shook off my depression over Winter Break and now I'm back to me, which is happy. After school I had guitar lessons, which are going quite great in my opinion. My instructor is just really wonderful, he makes me laugh because he goes off topic and everything. I don't know, he's a great guy and he's really skilled at what he does.
I'm starting to really love guitar (well I have been loving it for the past month), but I mean LOVE IT, love it, because it gets my mind off of everything that is happening, for five seconds, and I don't know, it's just a great feeling.
On another hand, I realized today that I need to live in the moment, and stop thinking and hoping it was the future, because if I do, I won't realize all the great opportunities that I see everyday. I'll miss EVERYTHING, and I don't want to miss ANYTHING. You can't turn back time.
And with that living in the moment, I think I've finally decided I don't want a relationship right now. For many different reasons. Sure, I love having someone to call at the end of everyday, someone to cuddle with in movies, but I have friends for that! And, I'm so young. Plus, I'm afraid of commitment, and I'm not good with it. I just don't like it, I don't see why I'm always looking for it. Maybe if I find the right guy/girl I'd commit, but right now I kind of just want to have fun and go out on dates and meet people and everything. I've been single for over 6 months now and I'm just realizing this now... ~*sigh*~
But yeah, that's my today (well technically yesterday now :/ hehe) life. I don't know why I am awake, I am SO exhausted :/
I hope you enjoy the next 364 days, I know I will!
Love always,
Me.
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